I've finally reached the point in my pregnancy where I am getting anxious and scared about labor. The painful contractions. The pushing. The painkillers, which I know I will beg for. The fear that I won't be able to get through it by just pushing. The looming possibility that I might need a caesarean. I don't want to be cut up and sewn back together. I was much more confident and fearless with my first pregnancy since I never went through it before and didn't truly know what to expect. It was like, you know, "winging it." I just hope I can do it again. I want to deliver a healthy and beautiful baby.