Changes are in the process of unfolding rapidly. I bought and am reading Kurt Vonnegut's Welcome To The Monkey House. I can relate to the title. I know brilliance will be discovered within those pages. There is my addiction to the movie Loser with Mena Suvari and Jason Biggs. I desperately want to have friends like the characters they portray. It is my wish. Watching this movie spawned my new love for Everclear. I borrowed my brother's Everclear cds. I am falling helplessly in love with their music. I am searching for a part-time job. I admit I am intensely nervous and scared being that I have been out of the work sphere for a little over three years. The work life is foreign territory to me now. I am fearful. It will turn out fine I know/hope. I am just frazzled right now. I cuddled with my son on the sofa when he woke up today. He touched my face so tenderly and sweetly. A bittersweet mixture of happiness and sadness washed over me. He is growing up. So fast. Too fast. I am heartbroken.