I am in a shopping center with M. and a few other people. The whole place is crowded with people. We stop by a video/dvd store. I flip through some dvds and choose three to buy or rent (I cannot remember which). One of those dvds is Basic Instinct. We leave the store and sit down by a table to order food and eat. This table is located very near to that store. I then realize that I do not want the Basic Instinct dvd (either because I have it already, which in real life, I do...or because I just changed my mind about the movie). I tell M. that I will quickly return the dvd to the store and will return in a few minutes.
I walk back toward the store and suddenly see Russell Crowe (from Gladiator) walking towards my direction and I catch my breath. He is so handsome and desirable. I don't know what to do. Part of me wants to try to meet him. Part of me is just nervous and unsure because I love M. I then impulsively decide to pursue him. While he is walking towards me, he seems distracted. It's as if he is thinking about something that is engulfing his mind and attention. I manage to get hold of him when he is right near me. I say no words to him. He says no words to me. There is just a strong lustful "feeling" between us.
We search through the shopping center…almost in a whirlwind-like fashion. We breeze through stores, spaces, and areas that may provide us with privacy. We finally find a simple darkened corner of a room and press our bodies together. I do not feel any kind of physical sexual touching or embracing between us…only IMAGES of what we could be doing in my mind…images of kisses and caresses and uncontrollable passion. These images flash through my mind…and I partially place a long object in me…and I actually feel the sensation…and then I suddenly think of M. I think What am I doing? I cannot do this. I cannot do this. I don’t WANT to do this. I love HIM. I love my M. I break away from Crowe and rush back to return the movie to the store. However, I cannot seem to find the store anymore. I walk back and forth the length of the shopping center, but I can’t seem to find it. I panic because I can’t find the store and M. will be wondering where I am. In desperation, I decide not to return the movie and I go back to the table where M. is at. He smiles and welcomes me back.