I wanted to cry while reading this entry by Akira. My prayers are with her and her mother. I do not usually pray or consider myself religious...I don't know what religion I am part of or want to be part of...maybe someday I will discover it waiting patiently for me...but I do believe in spirituality and the afterlife...I NEED to believe in the afterlife and heaven...it is the only thing that comforts me...that will comfort me when I think of mortality and death.
I have been to three funerals throughout my life...funerals for my paternal grandfather, my great-great maternal grandmother, and my Uncle B. I was sad over my great-great grandma...and even though I did not cry for her (I did not know her too well, but I know she was a wonderful woman...she was always so sweet to me), I DID cry for my mother, who loved her immensely. I cried in anguish for my grandpa...tears and tears... and wept helplessly for my Uncle B...especially for my uncle...he was only in his late-thirties. He was so alive...so accomplished...with a beautiful family. He is the one I think most about every now and then...the one I am most saddened about...the one that disturbs me the most...because he was my UNCLE B....death came much too prematurely for him. I miss him. I miss all of them.
I hope they are in heaven. Happy and beautiful and healthy and lovingly watching down over us.