Ah. Body image. What female doesn't think about or obsess about her body, at least once in a while? I think about my body a lot. I like my body, but one part I would change would be my tummy. I want a trim tummy. Not a flat one. Not a skinny skinny model one. Just trim and healthy. It would be good for my self-image, self-confidence, physical health, and my clothes. I just want to look fabulous in my blue jeans. I already do look smashing in jeans and boots (my butt looks va-va-voom in tight blue jeans...thank goodness my bottom is nice). But I really covet the trim waistline and tummy-look when wearing jeans. No extra bulge than oozes over the waistband.
I know, I know. Stop whining. Stop obsessing. Stop trying to fit the fashion ideal. Stop thinking I am less of an attractive woman because my tummy isn't trim. Stop analyzing my body. Stop wishing for the perfect body. Stop pin-pointing every little flaw.
I should listen to myself. I know I am attractive. My M. tells me I am beautiful. That I am sexy. That he married me for many many reasons, and one of those reasons was that he thought I was lovely. The first time he saw the photographs I had sent him, his first reaction was Wow. And I am happy he loves me for who I am. He said yesterday night that not only was I pretty on the outside, I was pretty on the inside as well. His sweet comment made my cry. I love myself too. I just think I would love myself even MORE if I lost some weight, exercised some more, watched what I ate a bit more carefully. It would feel amazing to not feel the need to suck in my tummy when I wear belly button midriff baring tops and low-riding jeans. I just want to better myself. It's GOOD to be fit. It would benefit my body on the inside and the outside. And my desire to be more trim will NOT mean I will be stingy with my food. I LOVE food. There is absolutely NO WAY I will ever cut the food I love out of my life. Food is wonderful. Food is good for your tastebuds. I don't think food should just be viewed as "fuel" for the body. Food should be more than that. Food is essential for your soul. Nothing is more wonderful than sharing pizza during a football game or movie. Nothing is more comforting than a hot cup of coffee or cocoa steaming dreamily in a mug during a chilly winter day. Nothing is sweeter than sharing chocolates with your loved ones. Food is really NOT an issue for me here. I just got to learn not to pig out too often. I just got to stick to exercising...not sporadically, but regularly.
List of features I am not too crazy about :
-my nose
-my tummy
-my legs
-my feet
To demonstrate that I do love myself...here's a list of physical features I do adore :
-my eyes
-my lips
-my boobs
-my butt
-my hair
-my hands
-my shoulders
-my back
-my hips
Yay! The positives outweigh the negatives.
I am no supermodel by a long shot, but then, I really don't want to look like one. I like being me. "Me" is the woman whom M. fell in love with and married. "Me" is the mommy whom D. adores. I think I should start loving "ME" unconditionally as well.