Movies with doomed love. It makes me so sad inside. I watched The Perfect Storm on cable. In general, it was an interesting movie, not the greatest, but it was entertaining. Fishermen, storms, lost love. I don't even care whether the movie was terrific. I just want to comment on the movie's ending (I hope I won't spoil the ending for you if you have not seen it and are planning to see it in the future). The part that was most heartbreaking to me was the love between the woman and her boyfriend, who was a fisherman. They had plans together for the future, for the rest of their lives. While he was away fishing, she secretly found a place for them to start their lives. She fixed it up and made it warm and comfy. She was going to surprise him. Then a horrible storm hits the boat...and well...the boyfriend, along with the rest of the crew, dies after such a struggle to return home. It made me cry. Not because of the acting...no...the acting was fine I'd suppose...but it was the IDEA...the THOUGHT of that lost love. The thought of losing someone you loved dearly and completely. The thought of losing the person who was your everything. I have that fear sometimes. I fear of losing my husband and my son. And the thought makes me emotionally and physically sick. To have to face life without either one of them is unbearable, unthinkable. They are PART OF ME. I would die also. I would die of heartbreak. I would die of loneliness. I would die when I remembered all the joy we once had together and how it would be forever gone, never to be replaced by anything or anyone else. I DO NOT KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITHOUT M. and D. I thank my lucky stars everyday and night that I have them safely with me. I love them so much that it really does hurt sometimes. It is true that love is both light and dark. Love is light when you are experiencing it and cherishing it. It is light when you know that you have many years and times ahead of you to enjoy and bask in your love. It is light when there is laughter, hugs, and kisses. But love is dark as well. Love is also dark for me because I am scared of someday losing the light. I fear that one day it will be ripped away from my hands and heart and I will be nothing more than a shell.
I never take love for granted. I have been lucky enough to be blessed with it. Love is tender and beautiful and I embrace it fiercely.