Dragonfly wings came today..ooh baby they are so gorgeous. Amazon rocks...fastest service from a website ever...quality service. YUP..I am giving them a postive plug...ewww sounds kinda gross, but oh well. {:O)I decided upon wearing the angel wings this year...dragonfly for the next.
Damn I gotta start doing some constructive things while I am at home. I am getting far far too lazy for words to describe.
Stuff I Need To Start Doing :
1.Earn some money doing something.
2.Start looking at school district citywide scores, to find a good school district to buy a place to live in.
3.Find a nice and affordable place to live in. GOD!! We are still undecided whether to get a co-op, condo, or an actual house. SHEESH!!!! It's so hard narrowing what you want when you don't even know what you want. All I know is that we can afford someplace small (at least 2 bedrooms) and comfy.This is where my financial earning capabilities come in..I gotta find some source of steady income until D. is old enough for pre-school or kindergarten. No daycare for him..I want to raise him.
4.Learn/ask/research about mortgages and loans...grrrrrrrrrr!!
5.Figure what the hell I am going to do when it is time for D. to go to school...damn I would have been out of the active workplace for like 5 years for heaven's sake.All I can say is damn damn damn.....I chose the wrong field to get a degree in...It is just not me. You know what I wanna do?? Get a job at the mall somewhere in a big store..Macy's or Bloomingdales or JC Penney...I am serious. I don't like job pressures..I want a serene, uncomplicated, unstressful job in which I can earn decent money to supplement M.'s income in order to pay for that future house/condo/co-op/groceries/payements/food/etc etc. Where's the lottery when you really really want it???? {:O){:O( Yeah it makes me laugh and it depresses me too. I hate my lack of ambition. Despise it. My fullest potential..I don't even know what that even is. But it is me..I want a comfy home and work life. Why didn't I major in something else?? Like art or computers (heh). Oh I am getting frustrated. I am letting myself down..letting M. down..letting D. down. I gotta get off my ass and do something. DO IT DO IT!!!!!!! I feel like cursing my head off, but then again that is not me either really. Right now, all I know is...I have to NOT buy anything more and spend too much time at the computer doing meaningless things. Yah..I am saying this when I just bid on the cutest Hello Kitty blue angel purse on Ebay and am planning to bid on the very first HOT BLOOD book. Maybe I will make a permanent pact with myself...those will my last last last purchases for a while. Sounds good. Or am I fooling myself again?
~~~sigh~~~